New Year's... sigh

So, I know most people are all excited about new year's, but I'm not. I'm not ready for another year of failed expectations & aspirations. I most definitely WILL NOT engage in the whole resolution campaign, or celebrate @ some overpriced party full of people that I will never see again.

So, on January 1, 2009 @ 12:00 a.m., I'll probably be sleep, but if not, I will definitely toast to a year full of shit that is supposed to happen...

Area Code

Maybe it's the new year that is swiftly approaching, or just my constant discontentment, but I'm thinking about changing the name of this here space... not sure what the new addy should be, though.

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

I've kind of forgotten all about this here space... cyberspace in general. Once again, my a.d.d is on the prow. I don't think I'll ever be satisfied w/ anything; whether it be my career, financial status, hair, clothes, & the list could go on. So, I've all but given up on trying to search for the pieces that are supposed to fill in my self-created gaps. So, the only thing left to do is to appreciate each day like it's my last, whether everything I want to happen happens or not. I have no positive outlook, I have no negative outlook... all I can do is lookout.

It's My Party...

& I'll cry if I want to.

So, my a.d.d. has set in again, & like so many times before, I've neglected this little space... mostly b/c I haven't been inspired by anything. Not that there haven't been interesting things going on lately, but I'd resided to just hold some things in, & I still am... just one of those periods where I'm not really in the mood to communicate.

Anywho, back to the title of the post... I allowed something very minute, but that had extremely serious undertones, to upset me tonight... culminated w/ other recurring events, I was led to a full 15 minute cry-fest. Afterwards, I went for a run. & now, I feel very good.

So, that's my 2 cents... sometimes a good cry is worth the dry, red eyes that come afterwards.