Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

I've kind of forgotten all about this here space... cyberspace in general. Once again, my a.d.d is on the prow. I don't think I'll ever be satisfied w/ anything; whether it be my career, financial status, hair, clothes, & the list could go on. So, I've all but given up on trying to search for the pieces that are supposed to fill in my self-created gaps. So, the only thing left to do is to appreciate each day like it's my last, whether everything I want to happen happens or not. I have no positive outlook, I have no negative outlook... all I can do is lookout.