Friday, January 23, 2009

Friendship

I had this deep & meaningful bit to write about how friendship is so important to me when trying to begin a romantic relationship... it really is, but I forgot every last one of the words of that deep & meaningful message. But, I wanted to occupy my space w/ this thought, so there... maybe the words will come back to me later...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Aqua Child

I just love, love, love reading my profile... kind of full of myself, huh?! Here's some bits & pieces...

Your Moon is in Cancer

On the day you were born, the Moon was in Cancer. Emotionally, you act as a watery sponge who picks up on the vibrations of everyone you come in contact with, both positively and negatively. You can feel the effects of the aura of any place you work, house you live in, or location you go to visit. It is also true that you are a moody person, since your emotional nature ebbs and flows like the Moon-ruled ocean tides.

courtesy of http://www.aquarius-profile.com/:
These people are never money orientated, but they do know how to earn it. You will often find that many Aquarius people have slaved away at a university and earned their degrees only to wind up doing voluntary work in a place no one has ever heard of! The Aquarius often takes on degrees and other such tasks simply to prove that he/she is capable of it. And that is all. They are highly efficient people, if they chose to be.

The Aquarius is just as zany in love as he/she is in any other aspect of his/her life. These people need to be with a person who understands them and boy do they take some understanding. If you enjoy gushing romance, hearts and flowers I suggest that you walk right past the Aquarius. Don’t get me wrong, if an Aquarius loves you then you are very lucky indeed as they don’t give their hearts to just anyone. And even less do they open up to anyone. Very few people know the inside workings of an Aquarius.
Every second with an Aquarius is like living on a different planet and this can be wonderful depending on how you feel about other life forms! I must mention their loyalty. If they have given you their heart then it belongs to you. They will look after you and love you; they will never cheat on you or hurt you. Even when they seem to have lost interest, they haven’t; they are just visiting their home planet somewhere in outer space…they will always come back to where their heart is.

courtesy of http://astrocenter.atrology.msn.com/:

Aquarians present themselves in one of two ways. One on hand, you'll see someone who is shy and quiet. On the other, an Aquarius can be boisterous, eccentric, and energetic. Both are deep thinkers with a love of helping others. Highly intellectual, this is a fiercely independent sign that prizes intuition tempered with logic. Both personality types have an uncanny ability to see both sides of an argument without prejudice, making them excellent problem solvers. While very much attuned to the energies around them, Aquarians have a deep need to take time out alone and away to rejuvenate themselves. The keyword for this sign is imagination. The Aquarian can see a world of possibilities even when there appears to be none.

Friends & Family
Even though Aquarians are great with groups of people, it takes a bit when it comes to making close friends. Deeply sensitive and cautious, closeness means vulnerability to an Aquarius, and this is not something to be taken lightly. Aquarians' direct, no-nonsense approach in combination with their strong values can make it challenging to get to know the inner person. Yet those who are able to do so will discover a friendship that lasts through the years. An Aquarius will go the distance for a loved one to the point of self-sacrifice if necessary. They look for creativity, intellect, and honesty in their friends. When it comes to family, the expectations are no less. Although dedicated to a sense of duty to relatives, the Aquarius isn't one for developing close bonds unless the same qualities they expect in their friendships are there.

Career & Money
Aquarians bring enthusiasm to the work they do, especially when it involves expression. They have an exceptionally high ability to put their imaginative qualities to the task and to think outside the box. Careers that allow for concept development or demonstration can suit this sign well. I know is the key phrase for the Aquarius. High intellect combined with an Aquarius' willingness to share their talents inspires many who work in the same environment. Being visionary types, Aquarians love to engage in careers that aim to benefit humankind in the long-run. When it comes to money, this sign really has a knack for keeping a healthy balance between having the things that they need and putting money away. When they are out shopping, the shiny, glittery, and extravagant will catch their attention even though their homes are generally decorated with great taste. It's not uncommon to find the Aquarius turning heads dressed in daring, brightly colored outfits. Most are well-attuned to their individual sense of style and aren't afraid to show it. Careers that suit the Aquarius are acting, writing, teaching, photography, or piloting. The best environment is one that gives the freedom to tackle the task without a lot of strict guidelines. The Aquarius is unconventional, and given the opportunity to show their true talents, they can perform amazing feats.

Love and Sex
Intellectual stimulation is by far the greatest aphrodisiac for the Aquarian. There's nothing like a lively chat rich in culture and future possibilities to get this sign going. When it comes to love, people best suited are those that are not thrown off by Aquarian frankness. Open, communicative, imaginative, and willing to risk are all qualities that blend well with this sign's perspective on life. Honesty and sincerity are essential for anyone seeking a long-term connection to this dynamic personality.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Cute Girl


It's fun to be the cute girl w/ the cute hair, cute outfit, cute purse, cute car... cute, cute, cute... But, what does it costs besides the obvious purchase price? I mean, what does it cost your future... putting your current desires ahead of what is so much better in your future.

Walking around w/ the latest Louis, while barely able to maintain $20 in your bank account.

What does it cost to attend this event or that one w/ your friends... chillin' in NYC when you're $5K in debt.

I'm not one to judge, b/c I've lived this life for as long as I can remember... so much so, that I've never been able to see my future for trying to escape my past by satisfying my present. & I just wonder how many of us are living this life? How many of us really know how to live life the right way; being patient, & taking the necessary steps to reap the tremendous rewards that await us.

As I dig deeper into '09 & my 20's, I vow to dig deeper into myself, so that those desires of my past are not the desires of my future... so that my "cute girl" image has more weight than just materialistic possessions.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Sour Apples


No matter what does or doesn't happen in my life, I never want to be bitter. I never want to blame anyone for anything that has occurred in my life. It's human nature to want to point the finger @ someone or something when things don't happen as we want them to, but the fact of the matter is that, we have control over our lives. So, if we don't like something, we have the power to change it; & that power is more powerful than any amount of money.


So, there will be no sour apples in my way.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Friday, January 16, 2009

Idiot Box

Watching television has to be one of the most confusing activities I can think of.... I don't do it often, but last night, I found myself caught up in ABC's Thursday night medical line-up, Scrubs, Grey's Anatomy, & Private Practice. & the common theme in each show... broken people trying to find healthy relationships. I found myself wishing I were a doctor, wondering what my life would be like if I were, & fully relating to the broken characters... getting caught up in the fantasy; somehow allowing their situations to persuade me to believe that this brokenness was ok, though I don't believe it is. True, the situations were as realistic as possible; however, what isn't shown is the agony in between the epiphanies & happy-endings... leaving viewers to travel into a place of denial where they believe this agony won't exist, but it definitely does.

Maybe that's why the old-timers called it the idiot box...

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Daisies


Idk why, but daisies popped in my head when I looked @ this here space. I guess I need to spruce it up a bit. So, here goes...

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

No Dose

So, I don't sleep; hardly ever, & there's really no reasonable explanation other than maybe my piss-poor diet. & for the life of me, I wish I could eat better, but the fact is, I hate eating; not in a bulimic way, but in a "food just isn't enjoyable for me" way. Like, I truly wish we lived like the Jetsons where we just ate pills for bl&d... it would kill all the rigmarole that I dread.

& I feel like absolute death today; like someone took an ultraviolet light & shined it in my eyes for like days, sucking all the moisture & life out of them.

& the sad part... I'm too tired to even appreciate sleep right now; like I'm too tired to even want to go to sleep.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Bright Side, Right Side

So... in all of my monotony & complaining, I forgot to disclose that I got a promotion... woohoo!! It would feel much better if I knew that I was one of those people that really fought for it... but, I didn't. But, it's still cool. My goal is to become one of those people; one of those people that don't settle for mediocrity & that gives 100% all of the time.

So, here's to my transition onto the right side.

Deja...

who.??

I'm starting to feel like I say the same things, & probably I'm having the same issues. Everything is so much the same... wth?!

When does the monotony end?! I suppose when I say it does.

Like this post, I feel like I've said this before... good grief.

Feels like that scene in Fight Club, in which Edward Norton gave a pbp on his daily tasks @ work... it was always the same.

Whoa is me. But, on the bright side, I do feel a bit positive... like the monotony will end soon; somehow.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Breathe

Hehehe.... hooooo :)

This is completely random, but just felt like I needed to do that after the previous post... a bit scary; not feeling as overwhelmed now, hoping for a smooth sail in the rest of '09... or maybe just January.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Over...


whelmed.


So, maybe I was too quick to denounce the new year. It seems like it's coming back to bite me in the ass. Or, maybe it's just all the mistakes I made in '08 catching up w/ me in '09. So, @ the start of '09, I find myself in somewhat of the same position I was in @ the beginning of '08, & I'm damned pissed about it... FUCK! But, a change is coming...

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Freedom

I feel like I've used this title before...

But, I'd like to know... where is your freedom? What in your life brings you freedom?

I'm still in search of that thing, & I've realized that all the things that I thought were it, are not... so, I'm still searching.

Aqua Overview

A friend forwarded this to me... dk where it's from.

Year 2009 Overview

Aquarius is all about a new vision in 2009, and working to move our planet toward the highest and healthiest quality of life. You are highly energized with this wonderful alignment, and your inspiration is rekindled to move energy in grandiose ways. You are able to utilize these high frequencies in order to create new structure and value in people's lives.

This is no time to sit back and let anything slip through your fingers. Express yourself and move forward with your visionary ideas. As you forge ahead, you find a reworking of meaning on a deep level, and discover possibilities as you connect with your highest star.

Your ideas have always been ahead of the times, and now you are a shining example of what the Earth force can assimilate into everyday living. You realize that the world was created with structure, and outdated modes of living that no longer serve mankind are being recognized around the world. It's time to let go of anything that holds you back. New thinking is on the horizon, and people are ready to align with the quickly changing energies of the planets. Your leadership skills will help humanity make these shifts, and you will feel supported by those who understand the need to create peace and harmony.

Be inventive in channeling your dreams into reality. As you find a place to manifest this energy, it will become easy for you to usher in a better world. The time to realize your highest ideals is here!

Not really sure how I feel about it... I almost feel like it's too vague; then again, it is for a whole damn year!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy 09?!

So, I didn't do anything exciting for one of the most overrated holidays in existence; I recognized it as just another day, as it should be. I was actually in the drive-thru line @ Whataburger waiting on overpriced chicken tenders! & I'm perfectly ok w/ that.

So, on this 1st day of 2009, I am continuing my celebration ban.

Damn, I sound pretty cynical; perhaps I should stop bitching & become a member of society.