Thursday, February 26, 2009

Daily Horoscope

Feeling a bit lucky today...

This is a terrific day for you, dear Aquarius, and you will find that there is a great deal of power at your disposal. This is a day of new beginnings. You have the opportunity now to start over and create a solid emotional base from which to work. Rid yourself of negative feelings and self-doubt. Use this day as an opportunity to strike out on new ground and achieve whatever you set your heart on.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Daily Horoscope

Too close for comfort...

You may need to slow down your pace a bit after the hectic pace of the last couple of days, dear Aquarius. With matters especially having to do with the heart, it is essential that you take a more reserved and sensitive approach. Try to ground and center yourself. Instead of thinking about conquering someone, try simply sitting back and receiving their appreciation and affection.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Daily Horoscope

I always feel this way...

You probably aren't going to feel very social today, dear Aquarius. In fact, you're likely to want to work on projects and tasks alone if you can. This actually might be good for you, as you probably need to concentrate on crossing certain things off your list without being distracted. Still, you should get out among others at some point during the day. You might want to be alone, but you'll still need to feel that you belong.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Daily Horoscope

Noooooooo, not this again...

Today much of your mental energy, and possibly your physical energy, is likely to be directed toward career matters. You might find yourself re-evaluating your goals and ambitions, dear Aquarius, and possibly considering other possibilities. The desire for additional income might be the catalyst that gets you going, but there's more to it than that. This is definitely a good day to give thought to a number of options. By this time next week, you might have actually made a few decisions.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

It's Morning Time


I wish I had about 2 or 3 extra hours in the day; preferably in the morning... My brain has been overloaded this week w/ my need to start back exercising. But, by the time I get off of work, all I can imagine is grabbing something to eat so I can go home & decompress, & ultimately go to bed.

Maybe, I need to start pushing myself in the evenings... there are so many things that I would like to add to my evening agenda like exercising & studying... 2 things that are actually good for me, but now that busy season has reared its ugly head, my main goal is to have as much energy as possible just so I can get thru the 9-11 hour work day.

What is a girl to do?

Daily Horoscope

Hope this really helps me today...

An increased psychological awareness and heightened intuition could have you tuning in to the thoughts and feelings of family members before they even know what they want, dear Aquarius. You might even be able to pick up on the thoughts of strangers. This is definitely the day to trust your inner voice, especially when it comes to making plans with others. They might not be too communicative while this atmosphere lasts, and may be less inclined than usual to say what they want.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Mr. Telephone Man


So, my phone has not rang in the past 2 days... weird, but not a bad thing. I think it just means that I need this time to myself. Or, maybe I just need some new friends :)

Daily Horoscope

Very iresing...

When you feel that your friends are trying to change your every day life, you shouldn't try to resist it so stubbornly, dear Aquarius. Open up your heart and allow yourself to be led - you will be surprised at the feeling of freedom this brings. You will probably have interesting encounters today that might change your life completely. Get ready for a really exciting day.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Daily Horoscope

I love, love, love this one...

As the dawn of another quiet and peaceful day appears, dear Aquarius, you will be in the best disposition to observe and appreciate the lightness of things. Life can seem so beautiful some days. You will benefit from this state of mind, as you'll be able to meditate. But be careful not to start reminiscing about sad memories.

Table for 1... Please.

Singlehood... it's something that, to most women, is as dreadful as weight gain. But, based on conversations I've had recently, I'm officially going to begin my singlehood celebration in year 27.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Daily Horoscope

I think I feel like this everyday...

Today, dear Aquarius, you will be submerged by a lot of emotions. In a way, you will be visiting your childhood, and you will be very edgy! You will be in the best disposition to analyze your life. You will be able to see if everything around you is where you think it belongs. Try to make the most out of this frame of mind.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Random pick-ups

Yea, there's no room in '09 for these...

You know the ones... where the guy has only laid eyes on you for like 5 minutes, yet he just knows that he needs your #. He approaches you & can't even introduce himself b/c he's in such a rush to get to where he's probably supposed to be... probably w/ his boo; & he drops a halfway charming line, just enough to peek your interest. He calls maybe a day or two later & his 1st date suggestion is watching a movie @ your crib...

But, watch out b/c these guys often disguise themselves as legit suitors... they take you out to dinner once or twice before trying to parlay @ your crib, or asking you to do the same @ theirs...

Nope... I don't need a free meal that bad; keep it moving, homie. & I damn sure don't wanna sit in the house & watch a movie... I can do that alone!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Girls...


So, I've often spoken about the girl in my head... quite honestly, I think there are about 3 of them! The 1st two that I've written about are needy, fearful, & very brash. They want to be in love but their impatience causes them to choose the wrong men. They use detachment as their defense mechanisms... they differ in the fact that #1 tries not to care, but is extremely sensitive, & #2 is the meanest bitch you will ever find in a 5' body, so she really doesn't care. Her pure evil nature will be the death of me or someone else!

Now, #3... the one that is fighting to emerge from the other two, is completely outgoing & optimistic. She doesn't have time to worry or regret b/c she's too busy leading the life that she wants to lead. She's involved in all kinds of extracurriculars, & has a genuine love & thirst for life & all things new.

So, my habitual lethargic nature has been constantly interrupted today by images of all these damn activities that this girl wants to do! & I'm like, "man, that would be fun." I'm envying her life, & she's really me; a part of me... so, I believe she is the one that will rule my '09, b/c I'm tired of those other 2 sad, lonely, mean-spirited bitches!

Lethargic


Sometimes, I believe I'm too lazy for my own good. I'm always thinking, "crap, I have no life." & the minute I go out & get one, I wanna run & hide.


Somehow, my schedule for the week is pretty hectic. I almost believe I have a long-lost twin that's getting me involved in all this crap; & while it's good crap, I can think of nothing better than just going home & enjoying my dear, sweet bum status.


But, I can't do that; b/c it's almost as exhausting as actually having a life. I'm thinking it's just b/c I'm tired as usual, due to lack of sleep. I'm hoping that this energy-stealing critter leaves me soon, so that I can live up to my '09 agenda.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Work-life Balance?

Today was a little rough… I made a mistake on one of my work-papers, & while I’ve seen so many of my other co-workers make mistakes, for me, I feel like it’s different. I always feel like people are judging me because I don’t have the recommended education. I’m sure it could be my own insecurity that’s causing me to think this way; however, I try to stay as humble as possible.

& I find myself wanting to revert back to the fact that I don’t like or care about this gig, but that’s really just a cop out; an escape. Because, truth is, I haven’t found another career that would suite both my financial & personality-related aspirations. So, I can no longer use that excuse.

But, my primary thought is that when I have children, my primary focus will be to teach them the importance of, & how to build a life for themselves. I think it’s frightening that so many people grow up not knowing what their most important purpose is… we spend so much time trying to be happy, but life isn’t about happiness, it’s about doing what’s necessary.

We also spend so much time trying to discover greater meanings to everyday activities, & our experiences. But, I believe if we exerted more energy in getting the simple things right, we would experience more success with the complex things. But, how do you make someone understand this? How do you explain to a young person that simple acts of discipline like reading, studying, or praying will benefit them for the rest of their lives? & not just because they are good things to do, but because the very act of doing them consistently will instill in them an innate skill that will benefit them in everything that they will ever do. How do you warn someone of this before they are even able to fully understand it?

Because now, as I reach year 27, I’m discovering that most of the things that I’ve held true in my life are complete bullshit. I also realize how much better off I would’ve been if my father had a more significant presence in my life as I was growing up.

Daily Horoscope

I wanna make this happen...

Today you could be feeling especially intuitive, dear Aquarius, and more sensitive than usual to unacceptable social and political conditions. Ideas for new goals, perhaps humanitarian in nature, might come to you. You should be in an especially idealistic mood, so you just might come up with some wonderful possibilities that might not be workable at this time. Write your ideas down, then consult with someone else who shares your interests. Then decide how to proceed.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Get In My Belleeeeeeee


This is how I feel right now...


Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Loss = Change

So, I'm feeling rather prolific tonight. As I was getting ready to shower, I had a somewhat epiphanic moment in which I realized that this month... this year, could possibly be one of the hardest of my life. W/ the year already starting w/ a major car repair & home invasion, I'm feeling like things could possibly get worse. & while I know that may be attributed to my habitual negative thinking, I feel like I should brace myself just in case.

Fortunately, my epiphanic moment was not followed by fear, but interest. Specifically b/c, as the title states, "loss = change." I've already made all kinds of promises to myself that I will not be the same in year 27 & thereafter, so I believe in order for this to occur, a lot of things have to change. I'm not totally sure what those things will be, but I'm prepared to believe that they could include anything, including my job.

So, if losing my job, some of my possessions, some of my personality traits, & some of my friends will get me to the person that I'm supposed to be, then I can honestly say that I've never been more ready to let any of those things go.

I'd like to go on & on about how this has nothing to do w/ any sort of spiritual connection, but maybe it does. & while I know I should probably give God all the credit for this moment, I'd like to believe that it's a natural progression of life. God is life & vice versa. & I'd like to believe that I blame neither of them for anything that occurs in particular, esp. bad things; however, as they are intertwined, I believe at some point your growth in them inspires change.

Perhaps I'll pick up that subject on another post... I'd hate to make this any longer than it has to be. The point is that I'm ready to lose.

Year 27

So, year 27 is fast approaching, & I'm scrambling to get sh*t done that I said I wanted to do, not by 27, but just in general. But, here is what I've learned about myself so far, & these are probably some of the things that have hindered me from accomplishing what I'd love to accomplish:

1. I'm an habitual negative thinker... the glass is always half-empty for me, so if it happens to be filled @ some point, it's a pleasant surprise.
2. I'm a constant dreamer/thinker... there is a whole other world inside my head that somehow fails to manifest into real life.
3. I'm not easily motivated... inspirational messages or words only last as long as it takes for someone to speak them or for me to read them; that's probably b/c of #1.
4. I don't have any set goals or desires... everything is relative, & nothing is ever important enough to me to truly commit to; goes back to #3.
5. I'm easily distracted b/c of #2 - 4.
6. I'm not as detail oriented as I once believed; most things fly right over my head, esp. if I don't care about what they relate to.
7. I'm lazier than I thought, & it's b/c of the aforementioned issues.

I reserve the right to update this list @ any time.

So, my goal in year 27 is to abolish this list.